Depression is like having a TV that is stuck on only one channel. For many years, mine mostly played reruns of “Don’t get out of bed, it’s Hopeless,” and of course the old classic, “You’re fat, Ugly, and Stupid.” It look a great deal of practice to learn to change the channel, but you CAN change it! It still switches back on me some days, and I have to make a conscious effort to pick up that remote. Most of the time I can. Some days I still can’t. It’s all part of the healing process. Be patient with yourself, and just keep practicing.