Recovery

Love Can’t be Measured in Weight

I put these stickers on my scale a while back to remind me that I do not weigh myself.  Unless your doctor and/or therapist asks you to do weight checks for medical reasons, I highly recommend trying this.  I used to purge after weigh-ins every single time.  It didn’t matter what the number was, it ... read more

Don’t Believe Everything you Think

Something I’ve learned about myself is that I have an automatic response when I look in the mirror that says “You’re fat.”  It doesn’t matter how skinny I am, that just happens.  This photo was taken at a time when I was so thin I stopped having my period.  Even then I ... read more

Tutus are Always a Good Idea

This picture was taken when I ran the Livestrong Half Marathon in Austin in a pink tutu.  I was really surprised by how many people came up to thank me for wearing it, because it helped them keep going.  Being yourself gives others the space and strength to do the same, and you never know who really ... read more

Afraid of the Dark?

In recovery, you can’t be afraid of the dark. That is where all of your biggest breakthroughs will be found. I’m not saying it’s always fun and it’s certainly not always easy, but if you let your eyes adjust to the darkness you’ll find the most beautiful parts of your spirit ... read more

Heavy Lifting

Love can lift very heavy loads.  I got to spend some time with my parents this weekend, and we are so blessed to have the relationship we have.  It didn’t come easily–it used to be World War III at my house when I was a teenager.  It took a lot of time and effort to heal the wounds, but I ... read more

Bad Reruns

Depression is like having a TV that is stuck on only one channel.  For many years, mine mostly played reruns of “Don’t get out of bed, it’s Hopeless,” and of course the old classic, “You’re fat, Ugly, and Stupid.”  It look a great deal of practice to learn to ... read more

#LoveYourRealSelfie

No makeup, no filter (and obviously no hairbrush) in honor of NED‘s Love Your Real Selfie day!  Even a year ago I would never have dreamed of posting a photo of myself without makeup on ANYWHERE.  Acceptance doesn’t happen overnight, and it’s something I still have to work on daily, but ... read more